Wow.We walked away from our Creator and got thrown out of the 0ne place He Created us in His Image and gave us everything and man and woman fell into temptation and the first sin was committed. THE GARDEN OF EDEN WAS SHUT OFF FROM OUR FIRST COUPLE YAHWEH CREATED AND CAST OUT FOREVER.

IT IS OUR HEAVENLY FATHER’S LOVE THAT BOUGHT US BACK BY HIS PRECIOUS BLOOD WHEN HE DIED FOR OUR SINS AND ROSE AGAIN THE 3RD DAY AND IS SEATED ON THE THRONE TO JUDGE US FOR WHEN WE SEE HIM AGAIN IN HEAVEN AWAITING ETERNITY..

We understand scripture so many ways and so much controversies go along each ones Faith and understanding of His Word.

To me i ask why? Why i was given up as an infant? Why was i tortured as a kid and abused by the mother i looked up to as my one guardian. And was not been protected by my helpless father.

I question The Heavenly father’s love and wonder why i had to be set as an example to suffer all my life? Why i can never have anything good in my life or hold onto any joy ever thay was precious to any human being..LOVE.

Why did a loving Creator let me be in a spell or may i say bound by evil doers using tools of SATan to do that.

Even when i am so happy about those who i love and feel free to express my feelings, but deep down in my heart the fear my mother had instilled in me takes precedent over my minds thoughts and i can not be free to say my ideas and what i knew was right.

Why can’t people accept the fact that ‘if Our Father stepped back and allowed the mistakes we did because of THAT FREE WILL HE gave us to use in our discernment and decision making, why can not others realize we got to not pass judgement on others ways if we think it is the correct way. What HAPPENS TO FREE WILL HERE.? Are we not only accountable to our Maker in Heaven

Say i mention Yahweh ‘s name thd original way since u choose to understand the correct manner not because i am pressured but because i choose to accept with my FREE WILL..

TO KNOW TO ACCEPT IT .

AGAIN ,will the Father and Saviour who i mention is The Lord Almighty..

I know He will not punish his children who has from another language or not a Hebrew tribe calls

YAHWEH, LORD or God.

Though it makes sense to me ,i cannot make one understand otherwise.

Is it free will? You care too much about what others will think,especially those who are dear and near to you.

As Yahweh choose to give me an opportunity to address Him ,mt heavenly Father,my Saviour as The real name used in Hebrew ..for HE IS THE LORD OF ISRAEL..

WHO WE GENTILES ACCEPTED AS HE CHOSE TO SAVE .BY HIS SPIRIT..WHY ARE WE SO DIFFERENT IN ACCEPTING IT,CAN i single handedly change others to accept ALL TO ACCEPT HIS NAME OR HIS OFFICE IN YAHWEH AS YAHSHUA (MESSIAH) MASSIAHIAC IN THE FLESH..

WHEN WE GO DEEPER,HE IS ONLY ONE .BECAUSE HE SAYS

IN THE BEGINNING WAS THE WORD AND THE WORD WAS WITH YAHWEH …READ GENESIS..

AND JOHN TOO..

It is again Free Will..and everyone will do what they want to do and it is up to Yahweh to reveal His Truth for one to accept by His Spirit.alone

I AM NOT HERE TO FORCE ANY ONE BUT TO SAY….OUR HEAVENLY FATHER IS OUR JUDGE AND HE USES A NOBODY LiKE ME TO help others THE RIGHT MANNER

My only conclusion is we have to practice free will even if we want everyone to be on the path we believe it is the True Way,in peace and that others come The Truth and practice the correct way Not for Church or Religion but for to be Led by His Spirit alone .

Prayer in the Spirit by His Spirit is the Best service we can do to serve our Saviour for HIS WILL TO BE DONE..

I HAVE ONE QUESTION? IF OTHER RELIGIONS AND FAITH HAS CERTAIN DAYS OF WORSHIP TO THE TEMPLE OR SYNAGOGUE OR MOSQUE AND KEEP IT OBEDIENTLY!!!..WHY DO WE WHO FOLLOW AND WORSHIP YAHWEH….THE HEAVENLY FATHER, AND OUR MESSIAH,SAVIOUR AND OUR LORD OF US , OUR CREATOR ,WHO GAVE US THE TEN COMMANDMENTS …NOT KEEP THE SABBATH …YAHSHUA FOLLOWED it too,He WAS NEVER DISCARDED it.

SO WHY ARE WE CHANGING IT FOR OUR CONVENIENCE? AGAIN FREE WILL??hmm.

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I am at a critical moment in my life..o have to decide,if i really were given a moment to digest the consequence i was to face at the most crucial situation i ended up in

I never thought for a moment if i will live or love anyone who wanted me for me.Why? Anyone can imagine if they knew my mother ?

The funny part,when i realized that at the moment that love between us culminated was no other day than my mother’s special day , who was a nightmare to me i felt fully so joyful that i do not have to answer her wrath anymore and thus i completely said good bye to the sadness i had of my childhood and as a teenager and leaned on to the Love of my life. I was so relieved later when we began our life together and the bliss of our union and our hearts that love knew no bounds. And yes there us TRUE LOVE PRESENT.

It has been almost so many decades and we have gone our different ways,but the love never faded..i feel guilty to even be alive or smile without that wonderful love of my life. Would he have been ok and happy in his life,i thought many a times ,since i was a his dream girl and love of his life too. He was proud to have met me and made me his own.

He was happy in all areas he felt i belonged to him and nothing would separate our love..

But ,nothing was further than the truth. I never knew why i left him to go with a person who i later found had been the cause of evil befalling me and my marriage.

I do not justify anything that happened.i blamed myself for all the events that followed and i was devastated..but,i went on to live against all odds with a drunken,druggy and a womanizer who i thought was the reason for my pregnancy?

Yes,i left thinking i was pregnant with that man.he was a sweet talker and used me to quench his greed ,let me say,the events that followed no enemy of mine should ever go through what i went through.

And then it happened . I had my child who was a spitting image of my man i

Loved and wanted to have his child the moment i became his ( i wanted to be the mother of his child).. thought i was not good enough for him for me to bare his offspring and i felt that i was only his love for lovemaking and a prize trophy.

Please read my book ..when i reveal every detail of a life gone wrong

Falling in love once again after being abused and cheated and lied and cheated,i decided i deserved it all because of my bitter separation and my leaving the marriage i had promised to be in till death separated us..

But what i found after decades later was gut wrenching…even till now i cannot digest the fact that LOVE had become the target of jealousy of a woman who taught me ” not money or fame or anything else just love is all you need in life”..hmm..

And i realized, one thing,your first love never dies on any accord.it is the best love.it is in your heart deeply hidden and you live with it..and wish it was otherwise never i seperable.

You can never put it in words but,luke we all believe WhAT OUR HEAVENLY FATHER UNITED NOT HUMAN BEING CAN SEPERATE..

Maybe we never can see each other again or maybe our father knows our true love and gives us a chance to make up for those lost years..But to going back to the title.!

ARRANGED OR FALLEN IN LOVE

..IF YOU ARE MADE FOR EACH OTHER , OR LETS SAY YOU ADORED AND SHARED A BEAUTIFUL MARRIAGE TOGETHER..LOVING AND GIVING INTO EACH OTHERS WANTS AND NEEDS,EVEN IF SAtAn SEPERATED YOU,you will never can be kept apart even if age or years or distance or life separates you

You are one in this life..You are united in love in your heart and soul.You can never replace one’s SOUL MATE.

See you in eternity. If u are a believer in our Saviour ,and you wish and ask for HIS FORGIVENESS AMD GO ON IN YOUR LIFE ..HOPING SOMEDAY ,THERE WILL COME A DAY WHEN YOU FALL I. EACH OTHERS EMBRACE ,TO JUST SHED THOSE TEARS AND SEE THAT ONE LOVE YOU NEVER SHOULD HAVE GIVEN UP OR LOST..

For love can do all things .yes it can

We talk about

I worry about you kids..once u became committed to my girl, then you too are a part of my life..to care for you and your future. She is a young girl and a naive one  very loving but can be fiesty

will be a family we r both sides will be a long time families too through you both .
I want it to reflect in her and you with my daughter’s dad as well.
Poor guy he loves his baby.
A staunch ,culturally very into Indian stuff..also of a different religion..but,because of his love for his girl ..He accepted your relationship and you.
He does not know the culture here..but, i need him being respected.
Our only wish is that your parents and us should have a smooth sailing..But our girl
feels i will be very open and complaint etc

I feel disrespected and a idiot when my daughter thinks low of us…we did not do anything to deserve this behaviour.
We know you are very good person and good for my girl and i have proudly told my family all in India too.
She has tied our hands to communicate with you openly or even meet your family..
Every day i get yelled because of this from her dad.
Nothing else.
Anyone who gets engaged needs to know they are in love and will face family and have to go on.

NOW IT IS A WHOLE NEW SITUATION AND YOU ARE THE EXPERT..HMM
BUT ONLY ONE THING YOU CAN REALLY DO, AND THAT IS PRAY AND TRUST OUR SAVIOUR TO PROTECT AND REMEMBER  JUST BECAUSE U ARE A FAILURE IN LOVE.DOES NOT MATTER YOU GAVE MUCH LOVE TO YOUR CHILDREN ,THEY WILL  YOU HOPE THEY WILL REALIZE and make their own mistakes and not yours .
And this time around you have YOUR HEAVENLY FATHER YOU HAVE ACCEPTED AND UNDERSTAND HIS LOVE TO LEAD THEM .
You just wait ..trust..pray ..and love and forgive your first love and your next generation as well…in your Heavenly Father you go on.