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Hi everyone ..i began thos journey to share my life story..many are adapted and have been adapting . The fact i wanted to stress here is to tell someone out there to be careful in their choices.

Either give a life to that orphan and make that child your own with no reservations at all or let go of the idea of becoming a parent and just help many poor orphans to get a shelter and food and training to live on their own

Put the resources to use what our maker had given you to share it with these orphans and thus share our Saviour’s love too. So that one day those children you helped will in turn share our Heavenly Father’s love to others.

Regardless of how they TURNED UP TO THIS PLACE IN LIFE, YOUR JOB IS TO HELP THEM TURN OUT AS GREAT HUMAN BEINGS AND BEING AM EXAMPLE OF WHAT OUT CREATOR’S LOVE TO REFLECT IN THEM.

INSTEAD, SOME LIKE THE ONES I ENDED UP WITH TURNED INTO A NIGHTMARE INSTEAD . SINCE MY MOTHER ESPECIALLY COULDN’T adapt to the fact the child was her own now and has not taken somebody elses name but your families and is grown up to be your’s to love and to cherish and look at as your enemy or a person to be torn apart till the end forsaking joy in all entirety.

Wow.We walked away from our Creator and got thrown out of the 0ne place He Created us in His Image and gave us everything and man and woman fell into temptation and the first sin was committed. THE GARDEN OF EDEN WAS SHUT OFF FROM OUR FIRST COUPLE YAHWEH CREATED AND CAST OUT FOREVER.

IT IS OUR HEAVENLY FATHER’S LOVE THAT BOUGHT US BACK BY HIS PRECIOUS BLOOD WHEN HE DIED FOR OUR SINS AND ROSE AGAIN THE 3RD DAY AND IS SEATED ON THE THRONE TO JUDGE US FOR WHEN WE SEE HIM AGAIN IN HEAVEN AWAITING ETERNITY..

We understand scripture so many ways and so much controversies go along each ones Faith and understanding of His Word.

To me i ask why? Why i was given up as an infant? Why was i tortured as a kid and abused by the mother i looked up to as my one guardian. And was not been protected by my helpless father.

I question The Heavenly father’s love and wonder why i had to be set as an example to suffer all my life? Why i can never have anything good in my life or hold onto any joy ever thay was precious to any human being..LOVE.

Why did a loving Creator let me be in a spell or may i say bound by evil doers using tools of SATan to do that.

Even when i am so happy about those who i love and feel free to express my feelings, but deep down in my heart the fear my mother had instilled in me takes precedent over my minds thoughts and i can not be free to say my ideas and what i knew was right.

Why can’t people accept the fact that ‘if Our Father stepped back and allowed the mistakes we did because of THAT FREE WILL HE gave us to use in our discernment and decision making, why can not others realize we got to not pass judgement on others ways if we think it is the correct way. What HAPPENS TO FREE WILL HERE.? Are we not only accountable to our Maker in Heaven

Say i mention Yahweh ‘s name thd original way since u choose to understand the correct manner not because i am pressured but because i choose to accept with my FREE WILL..

TO KNOW TO ACCEPT IT .

AGAIN ,will the Father and Saviour who i mention is The Lord Almighty..

I know He will not punish his children who has from another language or not a Hebrew tribe calls

YAHWEH, LORD or God.

Though it makes sense to me ,i cannot make one understand otherwise.

Is it free will? You care too much about what others will think,especially those who are dear and near to you.

As Yahweh choose to give me an opportunity to address Him ,mt heavenly Father,my Saviour as The real name used in Hebrew ..for HE IS THE LORD OF ISRAEL..

WHO WE GENTILES ACCEPTED AS HE CHOSE TO SAVE .BY HIS SPIRIT..WHY ARE WE SO DIFFERENT IN ACCEPTING IT,CAN i single handedly change others to accept ALL TO ACCEPT HIS NAME OR HIS OFFICE IN YAHWEH AS YAHSHUA (MESSIAH) MASSIAHIAC IN THE FLESH..

WHEN WE GO DEEPER,HE IS ONLY ONE .BECAUSE HE SAYS

IN THE BEGINNING WAS THE WORD AND THE WORD WAS WITH YAHWEH …READ GENESIS..

AND JOHN TOO..

It is again Free Will..and everyone will do what they want to do and it is up to Yahweh to reveal His Truth for one to accept by His Spirit.alone

I AM NOT HERE TO FORCE ANY ONE BUT TO SAY….OUR HEAVENLY FATHER IS OUR JUDGE AND HE USES A NOBODY LiKE ME TO help others THE RIGHT MANNER

My only conclusion is we have to practice free will even if we want everyone to be on the path we believe it is the True Way,in peace and that others come The Truth and practice the correct way Not for Church or Religion but for to be Led by His Spirit alone .

Prayer in the Spirit by His Spirit is the Best service we can do to serve our Saviour for HIS WILL TO BE DONE..

I HAVE ONE QUESTION? IF OTHER RELIGIONS AND FAITH HAS CERTAIN DAYS OF WORSHIP TO THE TEMPLE OR SYNAGOGUE OR MOSQUE AND KEEP IT OBEDIENTLY!!!..WHY DO WE WHO FOLLOW AND WORSHIP YAHWEH….THE HEAVENLY FATHER, AND OUR MESSIAH,SAVIOUR AND OUR LORD OF US , OUR CREATOR ,WHO GAVE US THE TEN COMMANDMENTS …NOT KEEP THE SABBATH …YAHSHUA FOLLOWED it too,He WAS NEVER DISCARDED it.

SO WHY ARE WE CHANGING IT FOR OUR CONVENIENCE? AGAIN FREE WILL??hmm.

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I am at a critical moment in my life..o have to decide,if i really were given a moment to digest the consequence i was to face at the most crucial situation i ended up in

I never thought for a moment if i will live or love anyone who wanted me for me.Why? Anyone can imagine if they knew my mother ?

The funny part,when i realized that at the moment that love between us culminated was no other day than my mother’s special day , who was a nightmare to me i felt fully so joyful that i do not have to answer her wrath anymore and thus i completely said good bye to the sadness i had of my childhood and as a teenager and leaned on to the Love of my life. I was so relieved later when we began our life together and the bliss of our union and our hearts that love knew no bounds. And yes there us TRUE LOVE PRESENT.

It has been almost so many decades and we have gone our different ways,but the love never faded..i feel guilty to even be alive or smile without that wonderful love of my life. Would he have been ok and happy in his life,i thought many a times ,since i was a his dream girl and love of his life too. He was proud to have met me and made me his own.

He was happy in all areas he felt i belonged to him and nothing would separate our love..

But ,nothing was further than the truth. I never knew why i left him to go with a person who i later found had been the cause of evil befalling me and my marriage.

I do not justify anything that happened.i blamed myself for all the events that followed and i was devastated..but,i went on to live against all odds with a drunken,druggy and a womanizer who i thought was the reason for my pregnancy?

Yes,i left thinking i was pregnant with that man.he was a sweet talker and used me to quench his greed ,let me say,the events that followed no enemy of mine should ever go through what i went through.

And then it happened . I had my child who was a spitting image of my man i

Loved and wanted to have his child the moment i became his ( i wanted to be the mother of his child).. thought i was not good enough for him for me to bare his offspring and i felt that i was only his love for lovemaking and a prize trophy.

Please read my book ..when i reveal every detail of a life gone wrong

Falling in love once again after being abused and cheated and lied and cheated,i decided i deserved it all because of my bitter separation and my leaving the marriage i had promised to be in till death separated us..

But what i found after decades later was gut wrenching…even till now i cannot digest the fact that LOVE had become the target of jealousy of a woman who taught me ” not money or fame or anything else just love is all you need in life”..hmm..

And i realized, one thing,your first love never dies on any accord.it is the best love.it is in your heart deeply hidden and you live with it..and wish it was otherwise never i seperable.

You can never put it in words but,luke we all believe WhAT OUR HEAVENLY FATHER UNITED NOT HUMAN BEING CAN SEPERATE..

Maybe we never can see each other again or maybe our father knows our true love and gives us a chance to make up for those lost years..But to going back to the title.!

ARRANGED OR FALLEN IN LOVE

..IF YOU ARE MADE FOR EACH OTHER , OR LETS SAY YOU ADORED AND SHARED A BEAUTIFUL MARRIAGE TOGETHER..LOVING AND GIVING INTO EACH OTHERS WANTS AND NEEDS,EVEN IF SAtAn SEPERATED YOU,you will never can be kept apart even if age or years or distance or life separates you

You are one in this life..You are united in love in your heart and soul.You can never replace one’s SOUL MATE.

See you in eternity. If u are a believer in our Saviour ,and you wish and ask for HIS FORGIVENESS AMD GO ON IN YOUR LIFE ..HOPING SOMEDAY ,THERE WILL COME A DAY WHEN YOU FALL I. EACH OTHERS EMBRACE ,TO JUST SHED THOSE TEARS AND SEE THAT ONE LOVE YOU NEVER SHOULD HAVE GIVEN UP OR LOST..

For love can do all things .yes it can

We talk about

I worry about you kids..once u became committed to my girl, then you too are a part of my life..to care for you and your future. She is a young girl and a naive one  very loving but can be fiesty

will be a family we r both sides will be a long time families too through you both .
I want it to reflect in her and you with my daughter’s dad as well.
Poor guy he loves his baby.
A staunch ,culturally very into Indian stuff..also of a different religion..but,because of his love for his girl ..He accepted your relationship and you.
He does not know the culture here..but, i need him being respected.
Our only wish is that your parents and us should have a smooth sailing..But our girl
feels i will be very open and complaint etc

I feel disrespected and a idiot when my daughter thinks low of us…we did not do anything to deserve this behaviour.
We know you are very good person and good for my girl and i have proudly told my family all in India too.
She has tied our hands to communicate with you openly or even meet your family..
Every day i get yelled because of this from her dad.
Nothing else.
Anyone who gets engaged needs to know they are in love and will face family and have to go on.

NOW IT IS A WHOLE NEW SITUATION AND YOU ARE THE EXPERT..HMM
BUT ONLY ONE THING YOU CAN REALLY DO, AND THAT IS PRAY AND TRUST OUR SAVIOUR TO PROTECT AND REMEMBER  JUST BECAUSE U ARE A FAILURE IN LOVE.DOES NOT MATTER YOU GAVE MUCH LOVE TO YOUR CHILDREN ,THEY WILL  YOU HOPE THEY WILL REALIZE and make their own mistakes and not yours .
And this time around you have YOUR HEAVENLY FATHER YOU HAVE ACCEPTED AND UNDERSTAND HIS LOVE TO LEAD THEM .
You just wait ..trust..pray ..and love and forgive your first love and your next generation as well…in your Heavenly Father you go on.

Honor Thy Parents…for IT IS COMMANDED..

I never dishonored them if i say i never did, that will be a lie…i disobeyed many a times due to the torture and ill treatment,forced to be disciplined unnecessarily and accept faulty blames,if my mother believed it was the truth ,and my father,never could say anything against her word or else hmm woo

DESPITE rules and being too strict outwardly i will say..i am glad to have had a mother and a father and through them FAMILY..

What about those who have no, parents ..those who were used as a vessel for their parents wellness and one parent was a dummie and was a hen pecked person.hmm
Many suffer because of parents are bossy and ruin their childwood dreams big time,which leads them to end their lives or become addicts and never amount to anything in their life.

I BEGAN THIS BLOG BECAUSE i wanted to relate to those i see on the streets and i encounter in thr different walks of life .Be it on a train or a plane travel or just even at a store like a fast food place..i see those with a blank look, no hope not even bother about the next meal..or where there aboad will be.

This doesn’t make me an expert in judging the homeless,but lets’s say..i almost came close to that too many a times with a little kid ..stranded even though i had parents and relatives..but no one bothered to initiate anyway.

No one wanted to take on an orphan who should have never been adopted in the first place..but,luckily i was a good looking young woman and was for various reasons  given a helpful way out of my situation.

But,i accepted it only to save my little child,and by doing so fell back into a frying pan as the saying goes.

Yes,i never wanted to live with my mother i loathed it..but i also loved her very much..as much as my father joined my mom by being a silent an onlooker and never could protect me or stop my mothers cruelty..i loved my parents.

I also wanted to be there for my brother my mon had separated me from..cunningly..

That is for my book..

For now i cam safely say..yes obey your parents respect them, honor them according to the commandments .BUT, DO NOT BE NAIVE..OPEN YOUR EYES AND EARS TO CRUELTY AND SELFISH MOTIVES OF PARENTS WHO MIGHT HAVE RAISED YOU ,NOT ALL PARENT DESERVE IT,

  BUT  is it a blessing to not be an orphan..yes.and no..

You decide..but,be a blessing when it is your turn to be all that you can be, a parent you can be.

The only reason i write this blog is to make aware of silently tortured humans who are driven to sin due to that kind of loveless.. life scared alone in the world

They do not know how to keep and receive love by a spouse or anyone else for that matter

And loose it all…UNLESS THE FATHER IN HEAVEN BLESSED THEM INDEED .

So,i forgave as i knew my HEAVENLY PARENT(YAHWEH) NEVER GAVE UP ON ME AND I WAS HIS DARLING 

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I was talking about how my life stood still when i found out i was not who i thought i was and how everything around me was something else,so  i began to perceive in a different light..Though they tried to tell me stories about how my little brother was really given to my mom because of a misfortunate child birth and that the lady had died after she gave birth..my heart accepted the little sibling as my own blood. Every turn in our growing up was interesting..i was like a protector to my baby brother..No one can say anything to him to hurt his feelings as he grew up.

I silenced my doubts that he was more favored and i was neglected in anyway due to the way my mother began to do things around our house. But ,my dad who was a disciplinarian tried to be k8nd and train me as well to become successful in my sports etc,my mother would begin to talk and treat me as if i was a stranger or a girl who was trying to take over her marriage.

Yep,it became a torture each day as my mother had gotten my father to resign from the armed forces..to be with us to raise the son,as a father should be present in just life.

I felt badly for him ,for having to work odd jobs as a veteran soldier is only able to find a job anyway.

He missed his job,and missed being in a dignified respected place,unlike the way my mother treated him here at home..she gave him a hard time..spoke rubbish street language she used to disrespectfully Express herself.

It was even before all this,i began to clearly realize,i was unwanted and a burden to the mother i had l9ved and thought the world about.

My father was in the army and away from home most of the year..except for annual leave off his duty post. So,when he was home i was happy..for he taught me to compete at school in many areas of education and  openly showed he was proud of his daughter..but was hen pecked husband,this could never shield me from my mothers wrath.

He really did not witness the beatings which  used to be regular and severe..i have blead so many a times..my cousins knew it ,for simetimes they had witnessed the harsh manner she had dealt with me.

Now i understand more of psychology of the mind,then i was saddened and thought i waa unwanted and longed for love .

My uncle and aunts family were my sanctuary, .but..it was short lived,as some ugly things happened as a child ,due to one of my family member who is no more..

Events repeated through a neighbor and still i was the one beaten up,saying” you are  lying and you will be apologizing to them”..which made those activities repeat in life.

That was the reason i was so protective of my little brother.

In all this my aunt was with us and things happened when she had to go to the store or run errands i guess. I was too young to know the reason.

These things surfaced in my mind only later in my life,since i was ignored and betrayed by the mother who should have been my guardian,instead let me suffer and blamed me for beimg a burden.

Later when i knew what this was i am glad u was molested and was punished for being a pretty girl.yep.it was because my mother felt ,i was pretty and i was there to compete with her for her husband etc. She wanted to punish me for everything ,from a coffee spill to a broken cup..hmm..

Don’t take me wrong ,she also gave me gifts and brain washed me to believe it was my priviledge to even be alive..

Her famous thing was, she gave a lot of gifts and money to buy me off my birth mother,and i should be grateful and never try to leave her. If i walk down the stairs to go to an event,let alone to school somedays with a flower in my head..she will pull my hair ,beat me up and call me names,saying,who i was going out to school to show my body to..hmm

In reality i shut myself to anyone who made advances to me even if they just said i was pretty ..i was soo scared. But i became a person with thos darks8de hidden inside of me ,because i knew i will be beaten more.day in and out i wanted to just end my life.

I still remember the time i walked to the middle of the street to be hut by the oncoming traffic,many times took poison..but Our Father had had saved me.

I cried and asked why Father is  life this way…..

BUT,EVEN HERE MY MOTHER FOUND OUT WHAT I TRIED TO DO,,SO AGAIN..MORE TORTURE..IN WORDS,IN ACTION..EVERY MINUTE OF MY LIFE TURNED OUT TO BE A NIGHTMARE..

ENDING MY LIFE WAS MY PRIORITY..AND MY MIND BEGAN TO LONG FOR A BREAKTHROUGH…YES. I BECSME VERY OUTGOING,EVERYONE SAID,I SHOUOD HAVE BEEN IN A LABD LIKE AMERICA WHERR I COULD SPEAK OUT MY HEART AND DO WHATEVER I THOUGHT IT WAS RIGHT..THEN IT HAPPENED, AFTER ,I HAD FINISHED SCHOOL ALONG WITH WINNING NATION AWARDS FOR EXTRA CURRICULAR ACTIVITIES AND DANCE THAT I LOVED SO MUCH AND A NATURAL AT IT ,I BECAME MORE AT BEING MISTREATED AND MY MOTHER BEGAN TO GET MY LITTLE BROTHER AND ME SEPARATED IN A WAY IT WAS BETTER FOR THE FUTURE THINGS THAT HAPPENED ..

But,all this made me stronger and as years passed i began to become rebellious and took to seeking true love where i thought i would find it. I made some mistakes and believed everyone who said a nice word or showed some kindness to me,went to help them and ended up being doubly tortured by my mother.

I shared these events as a preview to my next post and my book soon that will be published..only for one reason…

People who adopt kids ,shoukd think twice and assess twice and look at themselves,get the understanding that the infant or the child never asked to be adopted.. it might have been given up or killed or dead  whatever might be the outcome..or in an orphanage..but giving hope and raising that child till the infancy was over and then showing your hate and torturing it because …you never wanted to have a kid who never was blood related Oh my, that was the worst thing  I would not even wish upon my enemy to endure.

One thing i will say..to all those adopted parents and those adopted kids out where in the world..Remember..everything happens for a reason.never give up you kids,parents never adopt,stay childless if you do not know to adapt the fact ..it might not be your blood running in that kid’s veins..but  THE SAME HEAVENLY FATHER IS BOTH YOUR’S AND THAT KID’S CREATOR…YOU ARE RELATED BY THE PRECIOUS BLOOD OF OUR SAVIOUR.

I STILL SAY THANK YOU,THOUGH I WAS A NOBODY TO THEM,but  I STILL THANK THEM FOR FEEDING ME AND RAISING  ME AND SHOWING ME THAT OUR HEAVENLY FATHER  IS MY LORD AND HE CARES FOR ME TOO ,THE WORST OUTCAST AND WASTE OF LIFE TO HAVE BEEN BORN..

I KNOW I AM HIS DARLING..EVEN IF I WAS SEEKING AND LOOKING FOR LOVE IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES…..THAT STORY IS FOR ANOTHER POST AND MY BOOK TO FOLLOW.

JUST wanted to say i did suffer i did get out of that nightmare,but i never ill treated anyone or anything .unlike the way i was raised i pray Anyone ,any Adopted parent…please please  ADOPT THE FACT OF ADOPTION BEFORE YOU DECIDE TO DO SO.DO NOT DO ANYTHING FOR EMOTIONAL REASONS.

PLEASE CHANGE ..FOR EVERYONE..IT WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE FOR GOOD……